Abundance
The kids are back at school after winter break. Rain is falling outside my office, washing away the dirt and ash left by drought and wildfires. My mind is full of all I have left undone and all I should be doing. Never enough, never enough, whispers the voice in my head. Yet I lack nothing.
This phase of life is marked by never enough. There's not enough of me. Not enough time. Not enough school snacks. Not enough work. Not enough time for work! The fridge is low on food and the cars are low on gas and where will I find the time to get gas AND groceries AND pick the kids up from school?
And yet. I'm surrounded by abundance. I have a home overflowing with life - laughter and fighting and deep conversations. Puzzles and books and more toys than I know what to do with. We feast - FEAST - on incredible food that pleases our palates and fills our bellies and nourishes our bodies. Water pours forth from our faucets at our command. We have heat in winter and fans to cool us in summer. I have work that brings meaning to my life and gives me freedom to be with my family.
What would change this year if I could grasp an abundance mentality instead of a scarcity mentality? What if I could accept the alphabet ending at Y? If I believed I am enough and have enough, even when it looks otherwise?
Four years ago, my husband challenged me to leave the last bite of our meal, instead of wolfing down every morsel. A symbol of hope and gratitude and a recognition that we have enough. Enough time, enough resources. Not in a wasteful sense but a posture of abundance. It's a lesson I'm still learning. But I that is my resolution, my prayer, my focus for this new year: abundance. May I see all I have and all I lack and still say it's too much.
I lack nothing
This phase of life is marked by never enough. There's not enough of me. Not enough time. Not enough school snacks. Not enough work. Not enough time for work! The fridge is low on food and the cars are low on gas and where will I find the time to get gas AND groceries AND pick the kids up from school?
And yet. I'm surrounded by abundance. I have a home overflowing with life - laughter and fighting and deep conversations. Puzzles and books and more toys than I know what to do with. We feast - FEAST - on incredible food that pleases our palates and fills our bellies and nourishes our bodies. Water pours forth from our faucets at our command. We have heat in winter and fans to cool us in summer. I have work that brings meaning to my life and gives me freedom to be with my family.
What would change this year if I could grasp an abundance mentality instead of a scarcity mentality? What if I could accept the alphabet ending at Y? If I believed I am enough and have enough, even when it looks otherwise?
Four years ago, my husband challenged me to leave the last bite of our meal, instead of wolfing down every morsel. A symbol of hope and gratitude and a recognition that we have enough. Enough time, enough resources. Not in a wasteful sense but a posture of abundance. It's a lesson I'm still learning. But I that is my resolution, my prayer, my focus for this new year: abundance. May I see all I have and all I lack and still say it's too much.
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